You must be at war with everyone…
Surely, you will lose.
And upon losing…
You will grow bored.
And in your boredom…
You will fall silent.
"Truth, from the perspective of the corrupt… is a crime punishable by death."
I hate this.
I hate human hypocrisy.
I hate… I hate myself too.
Because I play their game of hypocrisy just to survive.
I believed I would never be fully tainted.
But…
I have become like them.
I use all their tactics.
Yet, there is a difference between us…
They use them against others… to drain them.
As for me…
I use them to avoid being their target.
I was born a child…
And I grew up as a child too.
But this child…
Was a monster on the outside.
He knew he possessed no real power.
So, he was forced to be "bad" to survive in the darkness.
To pretend to be strong before everyone…
Those who have no heart or mercy…
Is a crime you punish yourself with.
To lie every single time…
To escape their bullying…
Or to avoid being used as their puppet…
In the end, you wound yourself more than you escape their gaze.
Ah… Ah…
Aahhhhh…
I wanted to sleep on a royal bed…
With a princess by my side.
But…
Why do I wake up to physical pain…
Only to see it is seven in the morning?
Haha…
Hahahaha…
Lies… and a miserable dream.
I know my job won't even buy me decent clothes…
So how can I dream of a royal bed?
Wait…
How can I dream of marrying a princess?
Haha… Hahaha…
No… no.
I won't do this.
I must not possess something to offer…
So I won't be locked in a golden cage…
Where I am exploited until I run dry…
And then discarded.
No one marries without power.
And here, power is money.
If you have no money…
No one will respect you.
Have you ever found a man respected without wealth?
Love without power…
Is an illusion.
If you have nothing to offer…
You will be submissive forever.
Love is merely something rented from you…
Until someone better comes along…
And you are abandoned.
Everyone is "good" in their lives…
But I am also good… and successful.
The difference between us…
Is that I am successful in my dreams and imagination…
While they…
Are successful in reality.
He was the last one to survive the drowning…
But the sea remained in his eyes.