SEBASTIAN
Kelly's gone and he thinks we're going to link up after but we're not. I thought of ghosting him but I changed my mind, instead of ghosting him I'm just going to talk to him and tell him we shouldn't see each other again.
I still cannot believe this, I just realized that all the people I've had sex with remind me of Jessie in one way or the other. I'm crazy I have gone bonkers. I need to let Jessie go, all the way, which means I need to stop expecting him to contact me, stop stalking him on social media and I'm going to stop having sex with people who remind me of him.
Moving on from the person you love is so hard. So fucking hard, but I have to try.
I'm just seated on a chair drinking a beer as I look around me at the people who chose to eat and drink and just chill here. My dad used to do this sometimes. He'd just sit down and observe everyone and there would be a smile on his face. I used to wonder why but now I know.
