During the subsequent days, Yan Si gradually recovered, looking more joyful and brimming with life, yet still remaining innocent and naive exactly as before… Only at this time was RongCheng capable of letting out a breath of light relief.
In the meantime, the attitude of easily overlooking and especially coddling from that other person had taught Yan Si a single thing: RongCheng was capable of forgiving all of his mistakes. The man would rather believe that it was by reason of his own self being wrong, converting the entire whole of the responsibility toward his own part, better than the matter of admitting the pure and chaste younger brother whom he used to love and treasure had at present transformed his nature.
After the entirety of the matters that occurred, Yan Si was no longer pure; day by day he increasingly craved and yearned for amorous love, craved and yearned for low and base desires without at all recognizing it. His heart harboring the phantom dream of once more being passionate together with his eldest brother; at that hour, the two people were as though blending into a single rhythm of beating, and then he saw his own self being loved more than ever before.
At the fading afternoon, RongCheng sat contemplating inside the pavilion at the imperial flower garden; Yan Si strolled a round about and then arrived at his place, saying: "Eldest brother, embrace me… embrace me…"
Hearing the proposal, the man instantly shook his head to reject: "It cannot be permitted."
"For what reason? For what reason is it conversely incapable?" From the time Yan Si returned until now it had already been four days; although RongCheng did not shun far from him, yet he always paid attention to maintaining and keeping a distance.
Seeing the person persistently demanding an embrace, RongCheng suddenly became strict, saying: "Not permitted is not permitted! You are already at this age, acting in such a manner so that other people catch sight of it is then not good."
"For what reason is it not good? Formerly did the person not continually embrace me or not? Why now do you conversely say it is not permitted, I understand not…"
RongCheng with a bit of helplessness let out a breath in a sigh, pointing toward the sitting place beside his own self: "You sit down here."
Yan Si obediently sat down beside RongCheng; the man let out a breath in a sigh and gently stroked upon his hair, saying: "A Si, I already possess a wife, you know exceptionally clearly... At present you have already grown up, it is not permitted to demand intimate gestures further, do you understand or not?"
The man's attitude made Yan Si a bit afraid; he dejectedly nodded his head: "I… I understand already."
Only having to wait until the rice was cooked into rice-pot did RongCheng recognize the mistake within the manner of nurturing his younger brother; the hard boundary set at this period of time merely all the more caused Yan Si's heart to add a portion of resentment, the feeling of his own self being again deserted and abandoned reared up like a fire incinerating his soul.
Matters having arrived to this pass, Yan Si truly detested having to be a pitiful individual standing outside the margins of the love affair between the two people; at the very least he must perform a bit of something, otherwise he would possess no further opportunity to be close to Eldest brother…
For that reason, approaching near midnight, he then decided to grope his way toward the Zixuan Palace…
After that turn, Yan Si was again permitted to come to meet the person at whatever time, therefore when catching sight of him arriving, the imperial guards in no way barred him.
Yan Si silently outside knocked on the door, calling: "Eldest brother… eldest brother…"
RongCheng inherently was dozing and dreaming, wishing to sleep; just hearing the calling voice, he then bounced up, thinking Yan Si possessed some matter, therefore hurriedly departing out to open the door, asking: "A Si? What matter is there?"
Hesitating for a long while, Yan Si spoke in a low voice: "Brother, permit me to enter inside, is it permitted or not?"
Seeing that RongCheng appeared to wish it not, he instantly manifested an earnest and entreating manner, saying: "I truly possess an important matter."
The man weighed it for a short while, reluctantly nodding his head: "Very well, you enter inside."
Right afterward, Yan Si stepped inside to the very bed of RongCheng and then naturally sat down.
At this time, RongCheng began to possess an ominous feeling; he stepped forward to sit beside him, saying: "You ought not to come here, quickly return to sleep."
Yan Si instantly shook his head: "I cannot sleep."
"What do you again desire here?" This sleeping pig today conversely said he could not sleep or not? Truly difficult to believe—!
Suddenly, Yan Si stood up opposite RongCheng and furthermore looped his arms across to embrace the man's neck, hesitatingly whispering into his ear several words…
Just hearing across, RongCheng truly could in no way believe it; he was immensely astounded and asked: "You… what did you just speak?"
Yan Si gently elevated his knee, directing straight into the midst of RongCheng's two legs, faintly repeating the words…
The man felt exactly as though having just been struck horizontally by lightning, gritting his voice to ask: "Do you know whether your own self just spoke what or not?"
He naturally knew, thereupon nodding his head: "Does the person remember what your own self performed or not? That resembles a nightmare haunting night after night, I… how do I know what to do? Eldest brother..."
Straight away, he pulled the man's hand to touch upon his own private place: "Continually like this, I… I cannot sleep… is it that I am nearly ruined and spoiled or not?"
RongCheng's mental faculties were in a dizzy, spinning daze: "This… is it my fault or not?"
Causing him to become like this, he knew what to do?
Yan Si all the more tightly embraced RongCheng's neck, earnestly saying: "Eldest brother, perform it, is it permitted or not?"
RongCheng once more let out a breath in a sigh and shook his head, asking: "Do you know what performing in such a manner means or not?"
Yan Si shook his head: "I know not but intensely desire it… Eldest brother..."
Thinking toward the person even not knowing what performing in such a manner was, yet his own self conversely went to defile him, truly it was difficult for his heart to grant forgiveness.
Seeing the man hesitating endlessly, refusing to stir his hand, Yan Si manifested a truly painful and sorrowful manner, saying: "If uniquely there were no such night, then how excellent it would have been; perhaps now it would not turn to become like this… Eldest brother… do you truly wish to shake off the responsibility or not?"
The words Yan Si spoke were in no way different from lightning striking into RongCheng's head, exactly as though striving to convert the whole of all sins and faults into the man, so as to let the person feel a gnawing remorse, incapable of casting him aside and neglecting him any further.
As expected, those words had begun to expand and manifest their effect; RongCheng was completely swallowed whole by the complex of guilt, solely thinking that he would assist him this single turn, waiting for the morrow he would think of another device; he faintly nodded his head: "Very well, I will assist you."