Do you know what is truly right? Actually, no one really knows what gratitude means, do they? Xinxin feels deeply pathetic; she has done so much for these people to help them through, but how do they truly treat her?
Xinxin feels that all her efforts for them are futile, because they don't really think she's doing the right thing.
Xinxin feels that what they say to her never really moves her heart, because she doesn't actually think there's anything wrong with what she's doing. Is it wrong to try to be a good person?
Xinxin believes she has never received genuine care or what she truly desires; everything seems to come to her with its back turned.
Actually, Xinxin thinks she shouldn't exist in this world because no one in this world cares for her or thinks she is right.
"Haven't we long since become indifferent to life and death? Then why think about doing what you want because of something like this? What do you think you're sacrificing for? For yourself or for us?"
