Shen Biran just didn't want to see this, which is why she said so.
But even if she sees these things, so what? She sees the present, and she is unwilling to admit that she is a failure in love.
She has reached this point now, so she no longer hopes for anything different.
Or rather, she genuinely doesn't want to see anything, which is why she has these thoughts now.
Gu Qingyuan or Lu Xiao, both make her despair. The people she once loved deeply, in the end, only brought her hurt.
Having encountered so many feelings that made her despair, she still cannot make up her mind now.
If possible, of course, she also hopes to make a decision and do some things she wants to do.
But it's no use; she can no longer do these things.
In the future, she will start to doubt, doubt why she has such thoughts, and why she no longer has the most basic patience with Gu Qingyuan.
But in fact, no one knows better than Gu Qingyuan about Shen Biran's disappointment with him.
