I pray to Jesus,
and ask him questions,
I am ready for the truth.
.
As I sleep,
he shows me the key
to fading my locket of tyranny.
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A little songbird told me
I'm not speaking to my bestie ---
that it's a foe of me.
.
A little songbird told me
it's not a familiar face,
Just deception that plays the game
just for the thrill,
Of a miracle,
a lyrical,
and a serpent drill.
.
It's the viper
that slithers down the tree,
That appears
while I sleep.
.
Viper-Head,
Viper-Head,
It's not my true friend —
My mind slips into pretend,
Comforting me with my last friend
before Mother destroyed my stems.
.
I asked God why he doesn't want a reunion,
Where it's her and me,
and no one else,
Because I am lonely.
.
Her brown eyes gone,
All white and done —
An upside-down cross,
And a séance
where she speaks in tongues.
.
Its shadow grew larger,
Humongous like the Gardener.
.
She knelt in the circle
And conjured a beast —
A fiend,
the serpentine!
A pantomime of time.
My best friend
is not so kind.
.
Jezebel and the serpentine used my doubts
And played the role
Of a familiar spirit in disguise —
And told tarot readers
that The Rainbow Friend had died.
.
Her human disguise
was anxious and hidden behind insecurities,
Where she was so driven,
At pretending that she was an angel from Heaven,
When she was really an antonym.
.
She once said an entity smudged the room,
Three fingers, it's true.
It was an entity eating from her pesticides
Of maggots,
bloody wrists,
and fortnights.
.
In the castles
we would run
And play like little girls
Until the sun went down.
.
She is not the swan
for the dove,
Not songbird-white,
not love.
.
Songbird, sing passionately,
And remove her smudges
and deities
That feast upon my petals,
disgracefully.
.
Her serpent tail
and thorn weeds
Carry death's stink,
Where the devil sings:
"Let me enter;
I wear wings."
.
The Rainbow Friend follows the dread
And its trail of fails —
Petals that wail
Like the succubi of flowers,
Whose nectar is power.
.
Viper-Head,
Viper-Head,
You aren't my friend.
