"I love only you Itsy"
"You'll be the only one for me forever."
"Always"
His words kept echoing inside my head as my heart broke into a million of smaller pieces. My right hand flaring rays of magic attacks and my left hand a magic blade swung about with deadly precision.
I was making sure to attack with purpose as my anger, bitterness and loneness engulfed me entirely.
"You don't know what you mean to me."
"Your eyes captivate my soul."
"You are my everything."
My chest felt tighter at the echo of those words.
The beast in front of me opened his mouth.
Probably a screech of death but my eyes blurred while the sound fell on already deaf ears.
My conscience not even on where I was standing. My head and body weren't in control anymore. It was my emotions. The magic within me, controlling everything before me. Quickly dispensing the monstrous animals in front of me while I efficiently moved to the next target without a thought.
A ruthless mage on the battlefield.
Finally, as if that one thought had enough power, my clogged tear duct allowed one tear to escape.
Then another.
An another, until, a trail of them fell down on my cheek as more memories flooded inside of me. His voice echoing in anguish this time.
"Essy please don't hate me. Please."
He begged and pleaded.
Was it too late? As I lifted my hands and conquered a magic circle to make another attack.
Was it too late for everything as I remembered him wrapping his strong arms around me and making love to me with tears in his eyes.
How he use to spend the whole night engraving himself into my body like it was always going to be last time. I choked up with emotions. His desperation with every stroke, every kiss, every release we both felt. We both needed it as much as we needed to breath.
Swing…
If he only knew I couldn't reject him as he placed a ring on my finger as he, himself cried.
Another magic circle.
My mind clouded with our last time, our eyes red, the room a mess and our hearts in pain. I pretended to be sleeping as he kissed my forehead and his arms tighten around me.
"I love you."
Another swing. The wound that I thought was already closing blossomed opened and resurfaced as I made sure to obliterate three more monsters in front of me.
Right now my soul was tire of hurting so damn much.
"You have time now."
Another voice now echoed in my head. Yes, time was what I had. I had time to change. To redo all the past mistakes. To become better and avoid...avoid that other ending.
Could do this time around though. Destroy this time lines future and start again to make everyone happy?
Was I allowed to do that?
Was I worthy of it?