well, guess I will wear a black hoodie to not direct attention to myself. I hate the world just like how every teen does. Currently living a normal life, can walk around freely. When I look out and cast my gaze onto the world I think of how much of beautiful world it is it's truly a shame I hate it so much. In a world where my only hope left is to become a little taller you can't expect my expectations for life to be so high. Sai Kochiku 5,7 and going to attend my first day of freshmen year.
Going to the bus when it arrives I get on and sit down near the back cuz that's just my usual sitting there in silence looking out the window as we get to school the darkness outside the window only illuminated by street lights ever so often is a beautiful thing to gaze upon the peacefulness of these moments. When getting off the bus I just follow the leader to see where everyone goes it seems like everyone does their own thing on campus until classes start so I am going to find an empty hallway on the outskirts where there aren't many people at all I found it I am the only one in this hallway I fall to the ground take my bag off and sit on the concrete so this is high school it's dark outside but that's alright it is better that way. Then I sit around in peace and wait for a bell to start my day
The bell rings I go to my first period that's what I know I got to do but which one is my 1st period obviously I need to find a schedule with my name on it somewhere in the school do I wonder where I would find one
Literally went to the office and nothing I'll have to find an admin that has my papers and something to tell me where I can go I am quite the special person seeing that I got to go threw all this bs. That's one way to know you are thought of by the school. Finally found a sheet of my thing it says here my first class is social and emotional learning sounds stupid anyways guess now I got to find this place as I find it is obvious I am having last pick of seats and as I walk in I notice I don't have a seat just a weird long table in the back with a chair chatting that table with two lamps this will be fun no one is talking to me but who could I am isolated from the rest I don't have a deal like any of them and I am facing the window in the back I got to turn my head to see the bored bruh this of not ideal guess is a buss for this class huh 2nd period digital info to tech lets go learn about technology although I do always know that just easy A's for the class which is fun but it seems in this class that everyone has already made friend groups already so that sucks either that or they sound annoying not that I am being picky I just don't really care for friends in digital classes it's not like the class are online but it's still digital class that all assignments will be a laptops and get better at using them let's hope my third period is better as the bell rings to lead me onto my way to go to third period by no means do I have high hopes geometry class won't be fun in the slightest as I walk in I notice there is something weird about the people in here I walk in and sit in the closes seat to the door while telling myself there is no reason I should have this much goosebumps. After 10 minutes of just sitting in class most of everyone seemed like they were talking there voices were overly deep my voice was known to be deep and I know it is and usually is one of the deepest voices in class but this time it seems like lots are around equivalent to myself which doesn't often happen although I tried to ignore but I still noticed keeping my head down the teacher then stands up and introduces himself his name was Mr Sitowitz geometry teacher and if you did his work he promised a good grade on the end of year exam that's cool heart warming and then he says after that everyone get up theirs assigned seats everyone pray you got the one you want cuz there not changing obviously as I got up to stand on one side of the class room without wanting to I noticed my peers and just how massive they were much bigger then me most of them and they had tattoos they had muscles this scared me and they talked to each other like they have known each other for years I am in the back of the class sit next to a guy a little taller then me but with hella tattoos to my right another kid in front of me with height and a slim muscular build to my left no one diagonal to my left the biggest guy in class and diagonal right side sat no one guess she's not here today the class is quite at least around me but they are fine with talking to each other they seem to be talking about years before and little by little o had fun putting together the fact that they are juniors I am but a simple freshman it's not to bad teacher is talking about how will work threw even the holidays rip there goes my holidays it's not like I needed them anyways I will just wait on my phone till the next class
As I finally here the 4th and final bell for today I head to my 4th-period science class how lovely huh upon arrival everyone is sitting and talking to each other and well $^!# looks like there was no spot saved for me anywhere so I am sitting at a lab table secluded in the back the teacher then stands up and says where you sit right now will be you assigned seat from now on everything I thought of high school fell to the ground at that moment haven't made a single friend have no chance in making one here either f^#$. Always alone huh, As one that is adept at sitting quietly and listening to my teacher's introductions, she introduced herself as coach of our cheer team f*$& literally one L after another. The reason why this 1st day has to be so hard on me I keep thinking about and I can never realize at least for now thinking myself to death won't do anyone good I will just hold out until I leave today and then complain alone in my room.
I have 4 out of my 8 teachers' syllabuses if I sign them and turn them in it makes it look like I agree with their rules and regulations so I am not going to sign them or turn them in cuz I don't wanna agree to them forget about it then break them someday in the future so ya best know ya boy threw them mfs in the trash never to be seen again. Finally, I hear the bell to leave I walk to the buses get on the bus, and sleep while I wait to arrive at my stop.
When we finally get going I can hear how the others were so successful in getting new friends how delightful let me see maybe I can talk about my success to let's see here oh wait I didn't have any such thing I will keep my mouth shut then. It's always good to be one of these guys even these guys I have known practically all my life being successful must be nice to be them they are in normal classes there classmates have a normal amount of intel agents while I am fighting my best with juniors also the work gets really annoying. As we arrive at my stop and I get out of the bus and start walking to my house my sisters walk behind me farther back I walk faster than them I actually walked faster than anyone that got off the bus I do tend to have a walking speed of a person faster than most. I open the garage then walk into my room put my bag down and collapse on my bed a dark room it was nothing on the walls to speak of a small room too but with a lot of stuff all pact in like a puzzle that only works one way no room for rearrangement no room for that one wall strapped down with three desks one after another next to each other the one with half covering the window on the right side after walking into the door had opened computer and mother bored out with tools to repair or fidgeted with what can only be known as computer science mechanics the middle dest the one right to the left of that on holding book DVDs and games and the next after that only being able to be explained as 2 monitors a drawing pad a tower desktop with a nice key bored with consol in a compartment that seems just for show a couple of laptops that seem to be fiddled with two handheld consoles on the top of the desk on the same level as the monitors.
As I am laying down accepting my defeat for today in school life I look at my computer then decide to try to learn how to draw again is something I should keep trying at unfortunately I am literally no good at it though I am sure someday if I keep this up I will make something that's at least partially good. I wish I could draw.
Have no worries though the world will see my drawing and I will become loaded. Cash money flow style. I spend the rest of the day trying to learn how to draw them when I get so tired I can barley keep my eyes open I decide to got to sleep.
It's like a first day all over again with my 4 other periods first period or known as 5th period debate weird class but should be an easy A no one here that I can spot I got a good back seat and the class is in portable's so away from the main building which isn't so bad but looking on my schedule my class is literally the farthest class from where I am currently at that walk won't be fun for the whole year rip anyways debate seems cool there seems to be a chill Asian dude behind me first Asian guy I have seen at the school other than my sisters. The syllabus for this guy is actually reasonable probably cuz he's a debate teach but because he is a debate teacher I don't see it in these rules now but they will be powerful and limit me by a lot a debate teacher is one I am not familiar with so best to just throw this away and not do it. As I wait for the end of class I lay my head down to sleep so that I can draw more tonight then I did yesterday might as well get as much sleep as I can while I can. When I wake up everyone is packing up and some already lined up at the door all I have to do is pick myself up then my own bag and I can leave so I stayed seated and wait for the room to clear out a little before grabbing my bag to leave 2nd period is English class and this class is the literal directly opposite side of my 1st period now I gots to walk the whole school campus by the time I am half way done late bell rings and I notice how hard this walk will be if I want to make it. As I arrive there all already doing assigned seats well that's wonderful I can just in time to be seated I was seated on the i Dow seat which was cool I guess she's got a syllabus she put on all the desks before we got there I read it and said I ain't signing this $&!" And that was then end of that well she has a website she knows how to make a website that's cool English teacher type thing always strict on everything but this one actually seemed chill not like she wasn't going to be strict but in a way she would be better then the rest. She talk about how she's a fun teacher like all teachers that you would question the moment you walk in there room. As she was doing that the bell rang and she was one of those teachers that were like the bell don't dismiss you I do, which sucks cuz that won't be fun but on with it.
Next period will be geometry again it's like with the same people and everything the same class for a day and b day a class I go to every day is my math class this is the class that puts me on my toes one I can never let my guard down in and I have it both days lovely. I get there and make my way to the back I am one of the first ones there in fact just 2 others before me the class room is quite while the halls were loud. The teacher stood outside his door welcoming people in and watching the halls just in case someone decides to do something they shouldn't being a teacher truly hard job anyways as I sit down in this quite empty room I took out my phone and looked at some WEBTOONs I haven't done that in a while and I thought I should to help me draw maybe one day I could make a WEBTOON if I am good enough hell even if I am not good enough I know I will post that $&!t anyways unforeseen to most but against popular belief I am not naturally talented at drawing but not even with all my hard work in life I have yet to achieve anything rip I haven't grown not even a little from the start only
Learned how to adjust what I can already due small or big which is pretty useless. The second bell rings meaning half the time to get to class the other already spent and a little after this bell is when everyone else came in. When class started all those around me sat down did there work there were sim kids that were loud but oddly enough not annoying. The teacher mr sitowitz let us know that we will almost always get worksheets and stuff in his class he doesn't think doing it online is really any good, along with that his class can and went going to 4th period world history portable class and another far walk.
As the bell rang and I started my great walk there while listening to music as I walked there approaching the class I told myself history is always dependent on the teacher and hoped I got a good one it was an old lady she also seated you as soon as you came in gave me a window seat which this time was cool and I appreciated, she went threw attendance and it was bound to happen sometime a girl spoke up and said yes that my name but I have a preferred name her current name was just fine didn't stand out to much but then I hear her say my preferred name is Saturn and I look at her at that moment and say out loud she looks like the type in my normal Mona tone voice but everyone else didn't keep calm but decided to go crazy because of this they laughed some even said some stuff all I did was think to myself about how it's like she's asking to get picked on I truly question her intentions does she wanna be different or picked on I don't know and I don't care I am just gonna look the other way by that I mean at the window there seems to be 5 people in my class with exotic colored hair I am sure those hair colors will become a new normal for me although it's not like I have a negative view on them I just have one that I personally think is best which is be careful around them it's not cuz of the hair it's just most of them can be weird really weird with a puzzling amount of everything who knows why they started why they keep it up but if it's not cuz I think it looks good I only have one thought and that's walk away cuz I think certain colors work well with certain people I really do even if it doesn't look good on you to me if you say your doing cuz it looks good I will keep talking to you I will keep up with you anything else and I will walk away. It's not that it's bad doing it for another reason it's just in my current situation or how thing currently stand I would rather not deal with that friend ship I wouldn't be able to keep up with it and that's the reason I am gonna say I haven't made any friends I am not ready for them or keeping up with them rip lies can't truly sooth me but it does the trick. She goes over rules and regulations during that time I can't stop thinking about how annoying her voice sounds it's not a good thing to think about but I might be with her for the whole year I am already not liking this she is also very strict she doesn't want us drinking water in her class this is not going to be fun at all. Her syllabus reaches my desk I look into it like anyone would or at least anyone who is holding out hope that she may be chill under all that talk nope no she isn't though dumb @$$ b}*>~* anyways let's look on the bright side I ain't signing this $&!( and neither did I sign any of the others great start to the year am I right as I wait for class to be over I pop my head phones back in and take a few slight naps where I am conscious of everything that happening around my body but still in a way asleep then as I hear everyone pack up I get ready to go to my seat is the third closes to the door too no need to wait for them to leave so there less people I will be one of the fist out. 4th period ends otherwise could be known as 8th I head to the buses and then take a seat look at that again everyone has been successful in making new friends while I have done nothing nope nothing to help my friendship levels or my social life this is it the day I will die. I get off the both surprised I didn't die from just listening to my counter parts talk about how they were successful I wish I was so successful I get home drop my bag on the floor and collapse on my bed as I tell myself I will get to drawing I slowly shut my eyes exhausted from the day.