That little girl was crying for a long time her cheeks got so red," Mama? MAMA !" she stopped as she said that then she came running towards me , she jumped on me crying on my shoulder , she started hitting me while my sister got to know my kids," I'll get her to sleep, give my kids rooms to sleep in , and we need to talk alone, as soon as possible," i said to my sister, i looked at Rio and i added,
" go get some rest, we will meet after," he nodded, i held the baby and i started rocking her in my arms, she was tired enough that she got asleep on my shoulder, as soon as we get to her room i put her in the bed, but she didn't let go, she was mumbling too, i left the kid for less than a week and she starts sleep talking," please don't leave me mama," i couldn't handle this cuteness, i kissed her goodnight kiss and went to my sister.
i got to her room , she wasn't there so i sat on the bed, hoping she has a solution to my problem, but it took her a while to come, " So, what the problem?" she asked taking off her corset, " i'm in trouble," i said quickly, she looked confused," what?" she asked,
" You know how a week ago, I said I'll bring the kids back?" I ask
" Yes, and you did a great job in less than a week actually, impressive, so I'm questioning why it took four years for the reunion, also, Lia was a total mess, don't do that again, she refused to eat her cake until you come back, HER BIRTHDAY CAKE!" She said
" Well actually, we're in trouble, a big one!"
" What does it have to do with me? And what's that trouble you keep mentioning?"
"..... I promise Rio if he got me my kids back I'll marry him... In a week ..... And as you can tell he did ..... Am I going to get married now?"
" None sense, boyfriends do that all the time but never pursue, he's kidding, don't take it seriously, he made a bet, you're not going to get married just because of a bet Silly!"
" You think so?"
" Yes, why are you worried anyway? this is your jam, you love him! ....don't you?"
" I do... but I'm still young, and a single mom of two, who has a criminal record for kidnapping by the way"
" First, your boyfriend is the definition of a criminal, he was the one who kidnapped the boys and..... Never thought this will be the words I say to defend the devil himself but.... He loves you so much I'm sure he'll burn everything living if you get hurt"
" He did save the kids, and he was probably joking so I shouldn't freak out, you're right"
" I always am, so what's your plan for now on?"
" Although I would love to spend time with Rio, I need to spend time with the kids, I always thought they are the ones who needs me turns out I might be just as bad, also the guardian thingy for the boys they're almost 18!! Emy used to say she wants to go to the central academy... she's old enough, but I don't think any of them is stable enough to engage in such competitive society, Hidar is ..... unstable"
" What? How exactly?"
" He saw me, I don't know how, but that day the one you found out about my habit, he watched me do it for who knows how long? He witnessed my ugliest moment "
" He.... Is probably mad then, not at you , mostly at himself, that is the natural reaction to seeing a loved one hurt themselves wholeheartedly, which I'll kill you my self if you do again"
Her tone promising as she threaten to kill me if she saw me harm my self again, I still remember the look on her face that day I would never forget the taste it left in my mouth, like someone shoved gravel and glass in my throat, pure pain, it's wasn't disappointment like the look my bio parents would have gave me, not disgust like the so called friend I had, nothing like the indifferent look my ex boyfriend wore when I told him.... It was a pained expression that I have never seen before, because she was hurt... For me, she cried with me ... comforted me.
That when I finally accepted that this novel was my reality now, they're not characters, there is no storyline, this is my life, my people, my children whom I ruined their lives when I should have taken good care of them. I wish I ended mine before I even met them, what was their fault to end up with a mother as incompetent as I am?
" I know... That's why I worried ... What-if? I don't know... He gets the wrong idea and blames himself for it, I won't hate anything more, he is my son ,God damnit!!!"
" Baby I know, even from the outside, they look totally different from the kids I left them to be, they had problems before but now I don't think they can handle any more hits , so yeah, it's not a marriage time. "
I don't wanna to tell her about the weird power that possessed me, she'll get more worried when it's not necessary, plus if this power is what I think it is , I might figure out a way to make them forgive me...
" Yeah... So I'm gonna leave..."
" ...sure, good night?"
"No!... As in I'll need to follow the kids and move to a house near the academy, and take care of them ... So Lia..."
" ... Damn it , she couldn't eat well for the week you were absent in, how will I manage to take care of her for forever?"
" That's why I told you to spend more time with her, you're her mother"
" ... Can't you keep her for a month? No? 2 weeks? Okay fine, a week? I can't just start now!!"
" What? Noooo! You can't just send your child with me across the contient just to take care of her when she has a proper mother, that's a crime!! Which I believe it's called child neglection. Plus I have my own kids to take care of."
" Come on, she loves you more!! She won't even call me mom!"
" And whose fault is that ? How many times have I tried fixing it when you would just brush it off, face them consequences! ... With your baby' daddy, I heard he came for her, try to build a relationship with her from the start just like him ... And don't take the throne as an excuse! Adam is old enough!! You said so yourself, come on!!"
" .... You're right , you're absolutely right but I don't think I'm ready yet."
" Bullshit!! You think me and Lia have a good connection, I'm an aunt ! Totally different from her mother! Tomorrow afternoon, I'm leaving, you better prepare for the exciting morning we're gonna have, and I don't take no for an answer btw, now GN."
I shout as I slam the door behind me just for dramatic affects, but as I lean my back against the door I can't hear her winning... Can't blame her though tomorrow will be a disaster.