-Break-
I felt power for the first time in my life, the power to upset reality and make the world my own, and from that day, others saw it within me as well.
Despite my rank, they consulted me on information, they asked me for instructions on the battlefield, they gathered around me during moments of peace, they told me things in confidence they wouldn't even tell the most experienced adventurers, and in turn, I met their expectations, I filled their hearts, I took the reins of their doubts, and enveloped them with my strength. Little by little, the core of this expedition became about me more than the goal itself.
And many came to win my favour, even those whom I never thought would. Those who denied my strength were pushed to the edges of the group, yet even they knew they would have to bow down to me, to lower themselves to me, and their lustful eyes fell on me over and over again so as to reclaim some sense of power.
Location: Matibaypukaw;Paglipat Village
With my body sitting on a desk in my empty room, I look down and focus my eyes on the articles pasted against the omega butterfly. I say, "So they've been more aggressive recently. It seems that the young king has learned to secure resources for war from his compatriots more quickly; results breed trust. I would know that better than anyo-."
A knock slams against my door, and turning my head, I move through my lone room and open it. And to my surprise, I say, "Jane? What are you doing here?"
The woman wears a night gown with a view of her cleavage that isn't something you'd want to show to a random man you barely know at night. She shakes and waddles shyly while looking away from me, then quickly brings her face next to mine and says, "Would we be able to talk for a bit?"
As she starts walking into my room, I throw the pen I am holding over towards my wall, whilst I say, "No chance."
"Huh? Why?"
"I am sorry, but I happen to not like inviting women whom I don't talk with regularly into my room at night."
I quickly move to close the door, yet she places her foot at the door, and says, "I am not here for anything suspicious, I just want to talk about some things. Your wisdom would be helpful."
Opening the door, I grab her chin, then say, "I don't really have time for lies or subtlety. Now tell me, Jane, why are you here wearing those clothes, smelling so fresh, staring at me so shyly, instead of with your partner, John, down the hall?"
"I just came to-."
Staring into the eyes of the woman, the same height as me, I say, "Say it loud and clear, for I have no want to have a conversation with someone who can't state their desires clearly."
With her lips trembling, she says, "I want you."
"You got that, Jabari."
Her head swings around, and as her eyes meet Jabari, he says, "Yep. Have a good night."
With her face burning red, she turns to face me, and with a smile, I say, "I just needed some extra certainty this wasn't some kind of play, so I notified him to come from next door, to see your spicy confession."
"You brat." Grabbing my face, she presses her lips against mine as she uses the heel of her foot to grab and close the door. Then, in the next instant, her tongue forces itself into my mouth.
What is this feeling? It's like my head is spinning, and my body is burning up just as a swarm of ungodly sensations rushes through my flesh. It's like having an infection, an open wound, and a bug moving through your body all at once, but instead of pain and discomfort, it's just pleasure.
I feel my body seize up, my mind go blank, and my soul fill with nothing but thoughts of how to prolong this as much as I can. Yet it all ceases as we reach my bed and she pulls back from me.
Staring into my face, a cheeky smile appears on her as she says, "Ehh, where is all the strength and arrogance that you just had? It looks to me like your mind can't help you control such a sensation."
Looking away as I try to gather myself, I say, "Be quiet. I am not a rampaging beast of lust like you are, you succubus."
Bring her mouth over to my ears, she says, "The pleasure has only just started right now."
"This is why you women are just a sack of demons constantly using the biological gifts given to you to crush and seduce men in whatever ways you want."
"Excuses, excuses, if you can control yourself in a life-or-death scenario. You could do it right now, the only reason you don't is that you know that you want this."
"No, I don't!"
She pushes me onto the bed, then crawls over me and grabs one of my hands, placing it against her breast. It's soft. It's softer than anything a human body ever should be; it's like my mind is being filled with an instinct I have never had the privilege to experience, an instinct that tells me this is the point of my life, this is the point of my existence, and with all those sensations flowing into my mind is captured by her.
Looking down, she says, "Someone is aroused. Your words are cheap compared to what your body says."
Trying to fight through the swarm of sensations, try to push against her, but grabbing my arms, she pushes me to the bed, and says, "Don't forget, I am a stronger warrior than you are, my dear, little Captivant."
Pressing her forehead against mine, she stares into my eyes as I stare into hers and moves both of my arms to be restrained by one of her hands, as she uses the other one to lift up my shirt along with her own and presses her bare breasts against my chest.
The sensation and fog in my brain only grow stronger by the moment. Then, staring into my eyes, she slowly brings her lips closer, lightly tapping against mine, and says, "Now do you finally want to be a man or not?"
I can't relent, I can't be dominated, I can't be crushed down right now, I need to be strong against his all, from her wishes, from her control. I need to break free entirely. "Yes."
"Good," she says before plunging her tongue into my mouth again.
-Break-
It was an experience I would never forget, the feelings, the sensation that was so strong it felt like I was drunk the entire time. As she moved, my body reacted, and as I moved, so did hers.
Each action forced our flesh to react to one another in the most honest ways we could muster. Just using the given biological gits that I always had, I was able to get another human to move uncontrollably for the sake of my goals.
It was like heaven as our eyes could only focus on one another, as both of us kept trying to figure out a way to make the pleasure we both felt together greater and greater. In that moment, I felt like I understood a human more than I understood myself, and the opposite was true.
I was captivated in all respects; the sensations were so strong in that moment I could imagine my life together with her, my children, my house, my everything.
Yet it was an illusion. This woman, 10 years my elder, didn't come here to love me, she didn't come here to care for me, she didn't come here to connect with me, she came here to use that 10 years of experience to dominate me, to capture my heart, to bind my soul towards her so I could be her servant in any and all regards.
When she stared at my eyes, beckoning for her sight, she didn't see me, just what she could one day hope to gain by binding my favour. Just like everyone else here, my existence has yet to truly make them bow, to inspire their worthless lives into dedicating themselves to my existence, to make someone who looks at me want to follow my path, throwing away everything they had up to this point for the sake of that goal.
It's all superficial. I was wrong, I am not Captivant to these people, but an untouchable sword out of their reach, that they are all trying to grasp. All I inspire is evil and envy in their minds and hearts. To the point, this witch would stare at my fragile eyes and pretend that she has love to give them. I was naïve, I was foolish to think I had become who I wanted to be.
Turning my head on the bed, to her body which shows its back to me, I grab her and spin her around. Confused, she says, "Are you okay? I am trying to slee-."
"No, I am not satisfied yet. Let's keep going, or is this all you can give me?"
A look of worry washes over his face as she quickly brings her hands against my face and says, "No, of course it isn't. But don't get cocky, I went easy on you since it's your first time, now I won't be so gentl-."
Grabbing her arms, I press them against the bed, and from her mouth she whispers, "Your spirit energy got stronger?"
"Let's begin."
If people are just going to view me as an object. I will view them the very same. This body in front of me is nothing more than a tool to get what I want, and so is everything else these parasites are. I thank you, Jane, for teaching me what no one else could, how nothing is secret in your path to gain what you need. Even if it was only for a short time, I think my mind was in love with you, and for that I say thank you.
-Break-
-Age 16-
Location: Matibaypukaw; Capital City, Maymerkuryo
Gathered around the table of a bar with the rest of the expedition, I turn to the woman at my left, whose body is strung around my arm, and guide my hands through her head and say, "Felicia, you're as beautiful as always."
"Thank you, honey. It's only thanks to your love that I can shine as much as I wish."
My eyes move over to Jane, standing in the corner with teary eyes as she talks to John, and then I hear, "It sounds like those two love birds should take a page from you two."
"Every relationship has its problems; we shouldn't pry but wish those two well."
Felicia whispers, "I heard she cheated on him?"
"How stupid. And who would even have the balls to have an affair with the leader's woman?"
Jabari, slamming a gaggle of drinks on the table, says, "Enough talk about pointless things. Right now, we should celebrate, as after almost 1 year, our expedition has come to an end, and our payout has become massive, but more than that, our bonds have grown tremendously. At first a struggled to even imagine a quest in which we had to hunt Wonderbeasts all across the country for a year, but we made it through."
Smiles roar and rip across the faces of everyone, and then Jabari says, "But more than anyone else, one man kept this expedition going no matter how dangerous it became, no matter how much we all wanted to give up. His name is Captivant Nightfall, and he desires all the praise we can give."
Gathering up all their drinks, they says, "Cheers for Captivant! CHEERS FOR CAPTIVANT!"
Grabbing my drink as my face turns slightly red, I say, "It isn't just due to my actions, but the united efforts by everyone. So, I say, "Cheers to the expedition!"
Joining me, they all yell, "CHEERS TO THE EXPEDITION!!"