I don't know if it's just me, a couple of people, or maybe all the single people out there but sometimes, there's just this feeling of emptiness even though you are surrounded by all your friends and families. The warmth they give is just sometimes not enough.
This isn't the first time I am feeling this and I really want to share my feelings but unfortunately, I don't have anyone that I can consider a really close friend and confidant.
I am being left behind by people my age and surpassed by people younger than me even though my first classmates were people who are 3 years older than me.
Now, back to the point. I am lonely. I am not close to anyone neither my siblings, mother, or the rest of my relatives and so, I just stay cooped up in my room only leaving when necessary.
I am young. Just 19 years old soon to be 20 in April. But the loneliness I am feeling is something that an ordinary teenager shouldn't be feeling.
I have no other interactions to the outside world. I didn't suffer any trauma or betrayal but somehow, my world just kept getting smaller and smaller that I can't even keep my friends by my side anymore. I don't know what's the proper way to interact with someone anymore and I can't even remember how I used to interact with my few acquaintances anymore.
All I can do to forget this loneliness I am feeling is through reading. Through reading, I can feel various emotions like joy, sadness, heartache, frustration, and a few more to name. But sometimes, READING IS JUST NOT ENOUGH!
I want someone. I long for someone! Someone who would stay by my side. Someone who would teach me how to make new friends and come out of my comfort zone. Someone who would care for me. Someone who will hug me, feed me, and love me. Someone who is not family...
This is my inner desire that I have kept secret. Can I find someone like that?